A note to all of my friends surviving instead of thriving.
I know this is going to sound out of left field, but nonetheless, I am going to say it anyway lol.
I feel like I have been in an eerily similar situation as you. Quite devastating situation. I finally just let my life fall apart. Going into bankruptcy after affording my debt trying to survive in this world.
I am coming up on my 5 year anniversary of my Multiple Sclerosis diagnosis, I am the sickest I have been and I was pretty sick 5 years ago, but I had a husband and daughter and support. I have no one that I had in my life before I fell apart. Those in my life today are my chosen family and very few are my blood.
My life is so much better without them. Who would have known lol?
MS is trying to take my mind. The one thing I could always count on. Too much confusion in my life.
My daughter. My love, my life. She was raised right, until we started raising her wrong and I was blind to it all at first. I was in love. I had no idea how mentally ill we both were. I left two years ago after 18 years. I was 21 with so much potential and so much pain. Pain from an emotionally abusive childhood and I married my mother. Neither of us knew what a happy marriage should look like, so he guided me and I had no idea how misguided he was. We built an illusion of what we thought love looked like and forgot to include what it should feel like.
I was abused for my entire existence that I can remember. I cannot remember anything before my parents divorce. Trauma as I unknowingly fell victim to my mothers pain and anger as she alienated my father and I.
I recently found this truth out.
My father died young from cancer. I gave him peace that day. He gave me peace through one of his chosen family member’s recently. That day changed my path for the better.
My concern now is that my daughter’s father is alienating us from each other and I have no legal recourse to protect either of us. I intend to find a way to break this cycle of abuse. I just need to get my voice out there, because I need more support.
It’s ok to fall apart. It may finally allow you to find those shattered pieces and heal them. Then place those pieces back together and work on keeping those pieces united inside of you forever.
You have a chance to rebuild your life with new profound perspectives. Similar to if “If I knew then what I know now!” You have a chance to know right back then and right now xo.
I know this is going to sound out of left field, but nonetheless, I am going to say it anyway lol.
I feel like I have been in an eerily similar situation as you. Quite devastating situation. I finally just let my life fall apart. Going into bankruptcy after affording my debt trying to survive in this world.
I am coming up on my 5 year anniversary of my Multiple Sclerosis diagnosis, I am the sickest I have been and I was pretty sick 5 years ago, but I had a husband and daughter and support. I have no one that I had in my life before I fell apart. Those in my life today are my chosen family and very few are my blood.
My life is so much better without them. Who would have known lol?
MS is trying to take my mind. The one thing I could always count on. Too much confusion in my life.
My daughter. My love, my life. She was raised right, until we started raising her wrong and I was blind to it all at first. I was in love. I had no idea how mentally ill we both were. I left two years ago after 18 years. I was 21 with so much potential and so much pain. Pain from an emotionally abusive childhood and I married my mother. Neither of us knew what a happy marriage should look like, so he guided me and I had no idea how misguided he was. We built an illusion of what we thought love looked like and forgot to include what it should feel like.
I was abused for my entire existence that I can remember. I cannot remember anything before my parents divorce. Trauma as I unknowingly fell victim to my mothers pain and anger as she alienated my father and I.
I recently found this truth out.
My father died young from cancer. I gave him peace that day. He gave me peace through one of his chosen family member’s recently. That day changed my path for the better.
My concern now is that my daughter’s father is alienating us from each other and I have no legal recourse to protect either of us. I intend to find a way to break this cycle of abuse. I just need to get my voice out there, because I need more support.
It’s ok to fall apart. It may finally allow you to find those shattered pieces and heal them. Then place those pieces back together and work on keeping those pieces united inside of you forever.
You have a chance to rebuild your life with new profound perspectives. Similar to if “If I knew then what I know now!” You have a chance to know right back then and right now xo.
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